I haven’t posted on here in a while, and it has been just one of the jobs that added to all the other ones has made my life seem undo-able lately. I have been feeling crummy/ low/ down in the dumps- yes, I will admit it- a little depressed. Can it really be that the author of “Through the Dark Woods” still has times when she wanders around among the trees? Well, yep, I guess she does.
So it all started when I had lots and lots of lovely writing and speaking opportunities come at me. Then Charis, now 16 months, went into a phase of being not very well and not very nice to be around (because of not being well…and I do still love her btw!). I said yes to most of the opportunities but didn’t allocate any more time to do them, and couldn’t move an inch away from little C without her protesting anyway. Aaaagh. That and a few other factors have been making me feel very negatively about everything. I have been irritable, sad, demotivated, fearful, tired, insecure, and generally a delight to behold!
I did just give into it for a bit, but now I have come out fighting. I am strategising for more time. I am going to bed earlier. I am running faster. I am praying hard. I am telling a few people that I am struggling and asking for help. And I think I am starting to feel a bit more normal.
Thanks for listening 🙂